Back To School?

So I’ve been home-schooled for the past two years and I have decided that next year I will be going back to public school. I figured that I might as well break down the pros and cons on here, so here we go.

Pros: 

  • Possibility of making friends.
  • Sports.
  • Getting more exercise.

Cons: 

  • Bullies.
  • Getting lost in class work.
  • Stress.
  • Hate.
  • Body image issues.
  • Anxiety.

There are probably many more, but that is all that I could think of at the moment. If there are anymore that I think of, I will add those in. I will go ahead and explain my reasoning behind the cons.

Bullies- At my previous school (before I was home-schooled) I was bullied because this girl thought that I liked her boyfriend (I didn’t. I had asked him out because a friend of mine wanted to but was nervous.)

Getting lost in work- My reasoning for getting lost in work is that I am a procrastinator. I will admit that. I will put things off until the last possible moment. I know that it may seem simple to “just do your work” but I have gotten into the habit of putting things off and then forgetting about them. I need to work on this.

Stress- Everyone knows that when you can become easily stressed when put into a public situation. Just like everyone can be more stressed when they are put in a position where they are out for the seemingly immediate world to judge them.

Hate- I have come to terms with the fact that I am a lesbian. I know this. I understand this. I accept this. My only worry is that I will be hated against or on because of my sexuality. I live in a place where many of the people around me are extremely religious. They go to church every Wednesday and Sunday. They don’t doubt a word that the bible says. I have no problem with this, I don’t judge people based upon their religious beliefs. I simply hope that people don’t judge me based on my sexuality and/or beliefs.

Body image issues- When I was in sixth grade, my pediatrician told me that I was overweight. Ever since, I have had problems with my body. I went through an entire year where I ate barely one meal a day. I used to have headaches and mood swings. This was due to my lack of nourishment. I still have body image issues, especially when I am in an environment where I am the shortest or not the skinniest. I am afraid that if I go back to school this will worsen.

Anxiety- I already have anxiety. I am an extremely anxious person. But I tend to have anxiety attacks when I am put in a situation where there are lots or people, or people are very close to me. Loud noises tend to bring it on too. I have had panic attacks at the dentist, when people hug me from behind, and when going into certain bright or crowded stores. I am not comfortable in these situations and therefore have anxiety attacks. So the thought of putting myself in a position where this could get worse is quite terrifying to me.

In conclusion, these are the cons of me going back to public school. I know that it is risky, but I honestly feel like it may be worth it in the long run.

That is it for now. Bye.

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